Nonsensical ramble - please ignore me.........

[suanz]

Ever had an incident where you know the style of a particular fanfic author is not your cup of tea, yet you still go ahead and read another of the author's story out of curiosity???

Well - it happened to me. I cannot say that the author is bad - in fact the author is really good, I think(??). It's just kinda dark & depressing.

I simply cannot comprehend why the fuck I torment myself cos the last time I read this author's fic, I was fucking disturbed.

Anyway, despite that, I did not stop midway cos I had to know the ending right. No point being disturbed and not reading the entire story, right?? Afterall, I'm already affected/upset/whatever.

As expected, I was once again disturbed by the story. I tell myself - It's just a story. Snap out of it!!!! But it creeps into my mind now & then.

I really need to get a life. Sigh.........

Comments

[7veilsphaedra.livejournal.com]

No, dark!fic is one of those things that takes its psychic toll.

The only similar experience I can think of is listening to really raunchy pop or rock music, or melancholy romantic era classical music, but even then, that has a light at the end of it. I used to listen to Rachmaninoff's piano concertos when I wanted to think up grandiose epics. The songs were full of goofy dastardly betrayals, eponymous Rachmaninoffismheroism, and more weird WTF moments than Total Eclipse of the Heart. So there was a ripe hour or two spent in my head, and afterwards, I blew my nose, washed my face and got back to scrubbing out the fridge, or toilet, or interviewing the Mayor. All the emo purged.

Darkfic can be unrelenting. The shock stays with you.

[suanz.livejournal.com]

Darkfic can be unrelenting. The shock stays with you.

Wow!! You nailed it! Thanks for putting it in words for me. I could not have said it better.