suanz | Nonsensical ramble - please ignore me.........

Ever had an incident where you know the style of a particular fanfic author is not your cup of tea, yet you still go ahead and read another of the author's story out of curiosity???

Well - it happened to me. I cannot say that the author is bad - in fact the author is really good, I think(??). It's just kinda dark & depressing.

I simply cannot comprehend why the fuck I torment myself cos the last time I read this author's fic, I was fucking disturbed.

Anyway, despite that, I did not stop midway cos I had to know the ending right. No point being disturbed and not reading the entire story, right?? Afterall, I'm already affected/upset/whatever.

As expected, I was once again disturbed by the story. I tell myself - It's just a story. Snap out of it!!!! But it creeps into my mind now & then.

I really need to get a life. Sigh.........